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October 6, 2004

Life is not a struggle

I used to say that a lot in my 20s. Life is not a struggle. It's a wiggle.

Life in my 30s has proven to be quite the struggle. I don't believe in luck, catching a break, or that kind of thing. I think you reap what you sow, get back what you put out, make your own destiny.

As I speed towards 40 I have to question all of these philosophies now. We are good people. We put our children first, we give of ourselves, we do right by everyone. I try to keep a smile on my face and a positive attitude.

But seriously, how long will there be days when the truck keys are lost so I can't get checks to the bank, the insurance premium comes out too soon, the imac gift from the boss comes with an unknown password and no OSX cd to reset it, the house refinance company needs $600 for an appraisal, the car can't get fixed because they need it two weeks and it's Todd's daily driver, the paint won't stick to the garage properly because of the cool weather - yet the garage has to be painted before winter, etc. These are just the things that I'm willing to share here in this public place. There's so much more. I am tired of life on the slippery slope. It's not where I wanted to be at this age.

A great deal of the struggle is in facing these things and not lighting up a cigarette. Juggling everything and fighting to keep it from interferring with my work. This is where the true struggle lies. Not letting the whole train come off the tracks.

Yes, it could be worse. Outside of my headaches, insomnia and stupid things like that, we have our health. Please God do not take that. Our kids are happy and strong and well taken care of. I am proud of my accomplishments as a parent.

In closing, the good thing: I did not smoke today. That's a year and a half now for those keeping track of such things.

Now back to bed with myself. I hope I can sleep now that I've dumped more than you ever wanted to know here.

October 14, 2004

Just keeping the page from going blank

I have a lot to say but no time to say it.

What's on your mind?

October 17, 2004

Sweet Little Baby Girl

20 years ago my bestest buddy had a beautiful baby girl. Now that beautiful baby girl is all grown up and just had her own little girl. She is the sweetest baby and last night I got to babysit her. Isn't she adorable?

October 23, 2004

I'm a ....

I get so pissed off every day when I go over to Michele's. I have a wealth of respect for her but some of those who comment there really get under my skin. Some throw around labels like liberal, leftist, idiot, moonbat, etc. Like you are either a proBush republican or you're scum on scum. I take it too personally even though I don't identify totally with the left.

To settle what I am, I went seeking a test. Am I a moonbat because I oppose the war? Am I a tree hugging liberal because I think respect and undertanding go further than a kick in the teeth? Anyway, I found a test and it says ....

Continue reading "I'm a ...." »

October 24, 2004


I have so much to do today and can't get started since everyone is still in bed except me. If I were my mother, I'd run a vacuum until everyone was up and out. I'm not my mom so I'll drop some things here to keep myself occupied.

First on my mind, Al talks about his vote and ponders the Presidents health. Al is always thinking about something that I wouldn't give a second thought to.

Yesterday we took 380 pounds of junk to the landfill. It would have been much more if I had cleaned the old garage. Todd likes to hang onto things whereas I'd love to get rid of almost everything. Most everything I have is a hand me down or something someone else has gave me. Maybe I'll have a big sale in the spring. Maybe Hell will freeze over.

Also yesterday, my oven quit again. It's 15 years old and every so often the ignitor will quit. A hundred bucks or so will fix it but at what point is it time to say screw it and just get a new appliance? I'm sure it will just get fixed again as it never quits when I actually have money. That'd be too handy.

Continue reading "Sundays" »

October 30, 2004

Presented without commentary

An Open Letter to Americans


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